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I posted two Messages before a couple of months ago while going through a difficult trial relating to my marriage.? I was newly married and was having issues with my husband steming from him being disconnected from the marriage and him also not practicing what he was preaching on Sunday morning.? My husband allegedly is a pastor but we came from different church backgrounds.? He didnt understand my walk with the lord and I didnt believe he had one at all with the way he was acting in his everyday life.?

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And this showed in the marriage, he was didnt want to do anything in our marriage no sacrifice no love no relationship no nothing.? And so I began to pray corporately with my church and with a couple of my friends afterwards doing the Daniel fast for god to turn our relationship and him around.? And as I began to pray the lord began to reveal a lot of things to me.? I found out 2 months ago that my husband in fact was having an affair that was happening even before we started dating.? You see the girl is married also so I assume the reason why he married me was because she wasnt available and I was. I called the girl and she confirmed everything to me, and when she apparantly called my husband to tell him I called her he became irate with ME.? Called me and told me our marriage was over because I called her....it was almost like I was the one he was cheating with and not on.

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This resulted in me putting him out of the house with the help of a sheriff.? So now its been two months, Ive been standing with the lord holding my hand every single second, minute and hour.? And he calls me to tell me he is sorry for everything that has happened, that he made so many mistakes and wants me to forgive him.? He doesnt want a divorce, he wants to work things out..so on and so forth. He is going to change.... I started to file for divorce about a month ago but the spirit of god told me to wait. And so now my thoughts are: what will change between us.? I cant possibly go on to the way things are.? My heart of course melted with forgiveness right away and with a little bit of joy but my reality is and I cant help but question if he is sorry because he lost Everything and now has NOTHING.? Or is he truly sorry, you see remorse is just being sorry whereas true repentence is being totally broken before god.? I dont hear that in him yet, we only have been talking for 1 week now.?

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So now I am torn because scripture says that god Hates Divorce but it also says that if a person commits adultery you can write a letter of divorce.? I am definitely fighting the spirit with the flesh because the spirit is telling me to let it go meaning let god deal with him and his heart and not to enable him which is for the most part what I am doing but the flesh is telling me to take him back and forget this ever happened.? But there is so much hurt and pain and healing is a process..I definitely cant go back to the way things were but how do I trust he will not be the same.?

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Should I divorce...I am so confused.....Any help will be helpful.????

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